Presently and primarily what all this occult stuff has boiled down to for me is various writing exercises - I would call them. Mostly spontaneous, although at times I borrow from other things I have written.
I have discontinued nearly all of the occult paraphernalia I started out with, however some things remain. I will still adorn myself with ritual garments of the appropriate colors, most times. Lately crimson and black - the king and queen scale of the third emanation(sephirah). Which is apparently a common color combination of other paradigms as well. The type of garments is not that important to me, mostly the color, and that I appear presentable.
I have settled on one psychoactive that I prefer, and that is legal - and hiding in plain sight. I do this and usually write something while waiting for it to take affect, and listen to music. Then maybe write something else, more music, and then on to another activity. I would label the states induced as mystical which usually acts as a catalyst to compliment my already philosophical/mystical nature.
My informal writing varies quite a bit. Sometimes I wake up early in the morning and write before doing anything else as if it's some sort of compulsion. Of course I always realize after that what I wrote could have been better, but that's how it goes. Like some sort of improvisational guitarist of the occult, perhaps.
I know they have blogs for this sort of thing; haven't found one I like yet, and prefer the interactivity of a forum - most have died, or in the process of.
I know I could cease and desist any day now; it's been like that for a while, but I never do. So here I am, again.
I have seen that some really good people here are now gone, someday soon I will join them...
Agathodaimon - it's a fairly powerful enunciation if done correctly. Seems to be a compound word : agatho - Greek for good, and daimon - Latin for demon. Thus we have the good demon, and he sings like one. It's good music as far as I am concerned; decent lyrics.
The live version of this is good, but quality wise this is better...
If the cause never ceases to exist, then neither shall its' effects. What happens, will again, or would not have at all.
Eventually ALL finite things will END, but their RETURN is inevitable. The grains of sand that move through the hourglass of time are not infinite. Although they may appear ephemeral and isolated, indeed they are NOT in the EYES of ETERNITY.
When, yet again, time has run its course and all the finite specks of creation find themselves at the BOTTOM of the hourglass, CHRONOS the finite linear aspect of The Infinite One SHALL INVERT IT, AGAIN, AND AGAIN, AND AGAIN! FOR ALL ETERNITY! THIS IS THE RETURN! THE ETERNAL RETURN! Of EVERY SINGLE finite speck of individuality, OF EXISTENCE!
Even although the hourglass itself may appear infinitely diverse amidst all of its' variant complexities. It is not! They are not!
FOR ETERNITY IS A BEAST THAT WILL FOREVER CONSUME AND RENEW ALL OF EXISTENCE! ABSOLUTELY!
Perhaps this is the dubious "reason" why souls reincarnate if they are lucky enough to recognize themselves? Matter is neither created nor destroyed if your physics are koscher, so I like the hourglass analogy. But the hourglass is bipolar in its sifting between only two ends. Imagine multiple ends, not necessarily in an hourglass.
I do use numerous metaphors; analogies, and it varies as to what extent they are to be taken literally. The intent of my postings is more akin to creating artwork perhaps, than it is to formal writing; stemming from a contemporary cosmology in combination with primarily one other secondary paradigm, currently, that nearly runs parallel in certain respects. Also incorporating; establishing a connection with a fine musical piece is also of interest.
There will always be further articulation; elaboration relative to whatever vector I have acquired at any given time, and of course my frame of mind acting as catalyst to affect the nature of a work being formulated is a variable as well resulting in some very unusual - or downright bizarre - passages indeed.
I may expand upon some of your areas of inquiry; focal points here and elsewhere another time.
I have been subjected to various extravagant theories regarding what is often referred to in occult jargon as the "Abyss". Many if not all explanations are quite metaphorically laden as often is the case because I believe most have no idea what the fuck they are talking about. Especially when it comes to Jewish mysticism - although I'm not Jewish.
Crowley often spoke of these sephiroth, which is where I got it from. It begins as a zero volume that then begins a process of expansion. Each sehpirah is representative of a period of cosmic anabolism. Each expands outward, and each successive expansion is a superset of its' predecessor - an onion with it's numerous layers is perhaps an adequate metaphor.
So by applying a contemporary cosmological twist on this mysterious element; fortified by a schematic of the tree of life. All aligns perfectly, and It becomes quite clear(at least to me) what the allusion is here.
The sephirotic names referred to below are merely metaphors for various phases of cosmic anabolism. I am personally indifferent to them perhaps leaning more towards cringeworthy with regard to some.
The aetherial expansion is initiated by Kether(singularity; zero volume, or primordial point); continues through the emanations of Chokmah and Binah where the process itself, i.e. the propagating aether, creates the vast nothingness known as the Abyss.
The initial expansion(inflation) is believed to have occurred at superluminal speeds until formation of the Abyss was complete. The process then begins to slow as the sephiroth of the formative, and manifested worlds are emanated - each world is a collective pertaining to one or more sephiroth.
The above process renders the Abyss in mechanical terms. Speed of expansion, and timing with regard to emanation of the sephiroth is what creates the Abyss.
Once the final sephirah of the supernal triad is emanated(Binah; black queen scale), the propagating aether continues at light speed or greater for a time while no other spheres(concentric and expanding) are being manifested. This creates an untraversable lacuna between the holy trinity(as it may be called) and the remaining seven sephiroth, otherwise known as...
Speaking of the "Abyss"; reminiscent of yet another parcel of occult jargon is the concept of a "veil".
A veil being something that hides; conceals. As if to be taken from the very definition of the term "occult" - that which is hidden.
I can say that reason is not a bridge to all truth. Meaning that absurdities do in fact exist; obscurring knowledge that cannot be arrived at via conventional means - an allusion to a veil of some manner and degree.
Knowledge is a name given to the Abyss; also considered to be a veil. Thought by some to be the eleventh sephirah. Although this appears to conflict on some level with the eleventh path. Where the number eleven is already assigned the first letter of the Hebrew alphabet - the commencement of the enumeration of the twenty two paths concurrently as the major arcana; the spheres being associates of the minor. Ergo zero to daath, and quite fittingly as it is an empty emanation.
Crowley made reference to the Abyss as total chaos; it has no number for in it all is confusion. The reason why is because it is akin to stepping from the macroscopic material into the microscopic; quantum world, and quite literally as what lies above the Abyss is the supernal triad which is the microcosmic aspect of the tree(of life) - a context often referred to as Qabalah/Kabbalah.
So ultimately there is a convergence to one absurdity here, among others. That is that either a thing be eternal, or materialized from nothing.
I would however posit that primordial consciousness does not require space for its' existence apparently appearing prior to and in the absence of it.
So the vague "something from nothing" at least gets an upgrade to: emergence via a zero volume existence. One could even be content with this and move on in lieu of perpetually playing "The Banshee Chapter" on this to fortify; see other that may lie...