#19119 - 01/27/09 12:18 PM
Re: Where do you fail?
[Re: Asmedious]
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Sordid Archetype
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Registered: 03/05/08
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Loc: Long Island, NY
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I think what pains me the most is that I know the things I consider to be of importance, I understand the character traits and such that I consider strong and beneficial; yet I often find myself choosing in exact opposition to all of it, and usually it is simply because I am afraid. To be honest, I hate to admit such a thing. I used to pride myself on all of this creative and "independent" thought, and yet as I truly sit here since this weekend and think about it, I haven't thought out very much thoroughly. Consistently I am finding ,myself in both awkward and destructive situations simply because I refuse to display this multi-faceted sense of character that I continually describe myself as being.
Even still, the worst part is that I am destroying the things I love dear to me when if I really sat down to think things through I would never (in theory anyway) choose to do the things that I ultimately end up doing.
I can't figure out where the mechanism is broken. I mean, I have a rough idea, of fear and frustration, but what from that leads me to choose the path of self-destruction?
I used to think that my goal was self-actualization, but as of today I think it's merely just to breathe.
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The only god I believe in is me. . .
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#19263 - 01/29/09 05:41 AM
Re: Where do you fail?
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Zoid
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Registered: 01/24/09
Posts: 109
Loc: USA - New Jersey
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I expect such greatness from myself, but nothing even remotely close to that from those around me.
Are you saying you expect more greatness from those around you than you expect from yourself?
Or are you saying those around you expect more greatness from you than you expect from yourself?
Or some third possibility?
I consistently find myself falling short as a leader; Burning myself out while picking up everyone else's slack to accomplish [what should be] common goals when I should instead focus on eliminating the problems.
Your comments below make it clear you're in the process of enlightening yourself, so I'll just add some words to encourage you in what you're already doing.
Management is the art of making oneself irrelevant to the process. The manager who can take a month vacation, never call in, and come back to find everything running smoothly has strong management kung-fu and is worthy to open a school in the art and be its sensei.
I never thought I would admit it, but there is truth in the fact that the weak should be destroyed for the greater good.
Destroyed or otherwise exploited, perhaps. For example, consumerism could be construed as the exploitation of the weak for the good of the strong.
But really, the word "weak" is so open to interpretation that I don't trust it. A paraplegic mathematician is weak in one sense yet strong in another. The paraplegic is useless for stocking shelves but the mathematician could stride like a colossus across the future of human science.
Nevertheless, your central insight with regard to your own situation, to the extent I understand it, seems valid to me. If your subordinates aren't pulling their own weight, they need to be fired.
My own prior post on this thread might seem to belie the above sentiment but only because I didn't fully explain myself. I am ranked in the top twenty percent of the organization for my level. I have consistently been placed in assignments where the clients had previously been disgruntled by the poor performance of my predecessors, and in every case I turned the situation around, earning the praise and gratitude of the clients. I am also a goldbrick who will spend two hours reading comic books at my desk with my office door closed. The paradox is resolved by the fact that I work smart rather than hard, fast rather than long, and follow best practices such as jumping immediately on any task that comes my way, communicating promptly with stakeholders, doing the more important thing before the less important thing, and putting time into prevention rather than clean-up. The result is that you would rather have two hours of my time than eight hours of my peer's.
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#45393 - 12/21/10 05:52 PM
Re: Where do you fail?
[Re: TornadoCreator]
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OrgasmicKarmatic
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Registered: 08/01/10
Posts: 256
Loc: Michigan, USA
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I see that this is a rather old post. I ran across it in my searches of the early years of 600 to get a grip on some of the past this site has had. (It's done a number on how I see some members!) Onward though, I wanted to reply to this post because I thought it was an amazing idea 
I think where I fail in Satanism is becoming emotionally involved in things that I don't need to become emotionally involved in (especially in the ways of defense and anger) and in turn detaching myself from the things that I should be attached to. I tend to ignore the important big picture and instead try to attack the little things that are only little minute pieces of the big picture.
This is something that I have been working on and with work, I think I'll obtain a balance between the big picture and the little picture.
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