Thanks fo posting this Morgan. I share your madness.
I had long discussion here with Diavolo about dreams and ideals. Off course, they can fuck up your life if taken too seriously. But I think man needs wonder, dreams and ideals.
I personnaly couldn't live in a strict shrinked materialist model.
I'm for truth, courage, justice and trustworthy.
I'm not too much in the migh is right an prey/predator views. Yes, I'm a predator! But just because if I want this job, I'll prey this job. If I want this car, I'll prey this car. But I respect the persons with whom I live. I will not predate the candidates applying for the job I want. I'm just a good competitor...
Love is a central value for me and this could look atypic for a Satanist. But in my definition of love, self-love is included and I konw that who loves well punishes well .
I'm convinced we're at the dawn of dark days and yes, we'll bring the light.
I can understand you're tired, but you're not alone, the brotherhood is there. Keep faith!