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#40418 - 07/18/10 03:31 AM Why Satan?
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This is more of a curiosity than anything else. I wonder what brought you all to Satanism.

Myself, I've been using Satan in my personal symbolism for quite some time before I came around to actually calling myself a Satanist. I was raised Christian, so the symbolism connected better with me than other symbolism I have studied. The more I learned and grew, the more I connected with the characters of Satan, Lucifer, and the Antichrist.

Now I could nit-pick and point out the inaccuracies of the symbolism as according to scripture, but the common stories I grew up with seemed more appropriate for me. After loosing my faith, I kept the symbolism and made it my own. According to modern interpretations, Satan is the ruler of this world. Lucifer defied God, disobeying his orders and becoming ruler of his own domain. The Antichrist is a man that rises to power to eventually dominate the world, uniting humanity for the first time since the first human beings walked upon the face of the Earth. These seemed more and more like characters to look up to rather than to fear or even hate. In the occult, Satan represents materialism, which was just an added bonus since it goes so well with my philosophy.

As my philosophy and symbolism evolved with my knowledge and understanding, I came across La Vey once again, I had studied a bit about Satanism back when I was still considering myself a Christian. Only difference was that this time, instead of just seeming somewhat interesting, I found it down right agreeable. So, here I am.

So do please share. I am quite interested in the ways others came about this point of view. Why Satan?
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#40442 - 07/18/10 02:57 PM Re: Why Satan? [Re: Lucifer Rising]
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My story is similar to yours. I was brought up Christian, and around 10 years old when I started pulling away from the faith I identified more with Satan. He seemed charismatic, knowledgeable, and seemed to always have a way to get what he wanted. He was about earthly things more than spiritual things. Even when I did follow Christian teachings I never felt spiritual. I was always about what I had and what was around me rather than trying to please my way into heaven. I kept my relation to Satan through my teen years and eventually led me to black metal, which further strengthened my attachment to Satanic symbolism and my anti-religious feelings. Then I found Satanism. I still don't call myself a Satanist, because I don't think I understand enough about it yet. I've in the last few weeks read through all La Vey's books, the Satanic Scriptures, and Might is Right. The more I learn the more I realise that the Satanic symbolism fits me and my beliefs very well, and I look forward to each mew source of Satanic knowledge I acquire.
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#40533 - 07/20/10 01:51 AM Re: Why Satan? [Re: Clicks]
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The way I came to Satanism was from not wanting to be ignorant. A friend of mine and I were debating religion, and I made a dumb assed statement about how Satanism was just a bunch of psychos and misfit highschoolers rebeling against their parents.

He then made a quick mention about how Satanism is actually nothing like most people think it is, and that its concepts make more sense than any other religion he had read up on. I later found out he is a satanist, but that's beyond the point.

I was just an athiest at this point, but a few months later, I found myself on wikipedia getting a brief idea of what Satanism was all about and stuff. That night, I learned that everythng i had felt for my entire life was already codified into a philosophy. The next night, I read the entire TSB in one sitting, and I knew that a new chapter in my life had begun. This new chapter was going to develop into one of understanding, happiness, and secrecy. Only a select few people I know outside this website even know I'm a satanist, lol.
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#40537 - 07/20/10 03:03 AM Re: Why Satan? [Re: Lucifer Rising]
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I posted about this before in MCoS. My story hasn't changed, so forgive the copypasta.

If there were a statement to describe my self-discovery, it's probably this:

The emotional drive to “change the world” is a common stage of early adult development typically beginning around age 16 and lasting until around age 24. Usually, individuals who become aware as to how the world actually functions—rather than being lost in a fantasy wherein they will be some sort of savior figure—come to realize that idealism (such as changing the world) is less important than the principle of getting what you want for yourself.

(From:
http://www.churchofsatan.com/Pages/Politics.html)

When a closeted, self-loathing homosexual finally "comes out" and comes to terms with what he is, his essential nature is the same, but his outward expression changes to become more authentic. That was essentially what happened to me when I became a Satanist.

I was a Buddhist for 3 years. I tried (and failed miserably) to live my life purely altruistically. I gave up a lot of the things I loved because they were "selfish". I tried to be as consumer-conscious, eco-friendly, fair-trade, and vegan as I possibly could. I gave heaping loads of money off a minimum wage job to starving children in the armpits of the world, and much to panhandlers. I pity-fucked sad men because I was sorry they couldn't get laid. I threw myself into freeing Tibet. And I was constantly miserable because I kept telling myself this is what I should be doing but all the while I missed out on all the things I really wanted.

As for Tibet, I got too up close and personal with Tibetans to maintain the illusion that they were the kind, peaceful, spiritual people I saw in documentaries. A select few were genuinely caring and compassionate, but most of them weren't half as passionate about the plight of tortured monks and nuns as I was. There was bigotry from region to region (U-Tsang vs. Amdo vs. Kham). There was a caste system every bit as ugly as India's. Tibetans believed the blind were being punished for misdeeds in previous lives, and thus treated them as pariahs. There were disputes between generations, and between nyinjors (born in exile) and sanjors (born in Tibet). There was xenophobia against anything Chinese and racism against whites, hispanics, and blacks. Superstitions and pseudoscience were a way of life. And the more I got involved with them and the more I learned about this, I thought, "This is what I'm fighting to save? This is the cause I've poured my heart and soul into?"

I withdrew from this somewhat and focused on Buddhism itself; the philosophy which inspired me to try and save Tibet in the first place. There was a lot of value in the old, original material. It was better than other religions I knew of in that there was no endorsement of violence, no supernatural claims, and no false certainty. It embraced the human intellect and skepticism in a way that was refreshing, a way that I was passionate about. But ultimately, it was a collectivist philosophy, one that aimed at the utter destruction of the ego. Not only was I incapable of doing this, I didn't really want to. I had lost my faith; not faith in anything supernatural, but faith in humanity.

I was changed by a succession of awakenings.

First, I saw the film Repo! The Genetic Opera. I loved the unique blend of classical tragedy with modern dystopian sci-fi and horror & gore. I sought out others who were as obsessed with this rising cult phenomenon as I was.

Second, I met a man who shared my interest in this film; a fellow member of a shadowcast for it. He sent me a friend request on MySpace and I was taken by his profile. His description read: "Most People Are Lazy And Stupid". As I read his blog and the other things on his page and I was enthralled. He was blunt and bullshit free, as cynical and misanthropic as I was. We talked, we hooked up, and we accidentally ended up falling for one another even though we were mutually pessimistic about love and relationships.

Third, I had slowly become a fan of a YouTube personality known as "The Amazing Atheist". I became aware of his channel, oddly enough, because he made a video disparaging Buddhism. I initially thought he was a putz (the way he talked about Buddhism showed that he knew little about it; he made some glaring errors) but as I explored his channel further I realized he was actually insightful and entertaining on occasion, despite his false sense of certainty on certain subjects.

When The Amazing Atheist opened his own website, terroja.com (now defunct), I enjoyed interacting with his other fans. One brought up LaVeyan Satanism and provided a link to the Satanic Bible. I had found a word for how I felt. I and my partner discovered ourselves as Satanists together. So here I am.
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#40542 - 07/20/10 11:35 AM Re: Why Satan? [Re: XiaoGui17]
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Interesting post, and I can relate to many points which were said.

I also went through a phase of youthful idealism with a passion to try to change the world, or to somehow contribute to making the world a better place. However, on growing into my late 20s, most of that has worn off, and I find it more productive to concentrate on personal empowerment and self-understanding, rather than on social activism (unless the latter could benefit me directly).

Having already studied Western philosophy (David Hume took my interest in particular) and modern psychology, I also explored Buddhism in depth (in its Western forms), including various forms of meditation, as well as other meditative practices such as tai chi and Reiki - leaving the metaphysical baggage at the door and using them as meditative tools from a basically atheistic stance.

I later explored hypnosis, and ended up training as a hypnotherapist, getting two full practitioner diplomas. However, I've since decided to pursue a high-tech career path instead, although hypnosis (along with NLP, taken with a pinch of salt) is still a potential tool in my toolbox, which can be expanded upon as need be.

I don't practice much Buddhist-style meditation nowadays - it's quite an ascetic practice - and as for the Buddhist ethics, they promoted not only mandatory altruism (as much as Christianity) but the Eastern concept of Ahimsa or non-violence, which leads to a lot of social pressure in Buddhist circles to become vegan to prevent exploiting and causing suffering to animals, as well as to devote as much money as you can give to the "Dana bowl" (Dana meaning 'Generosity'), the Buddhist equivalent of the Christian money plate.

Despite these sky-high values however (or perhaps due to them), some highly devout Buddhists I have met are truly hypocritical motherfuckers. They preach compassion and 'lovingkindness' everytime they open their mouths, yet are often selfish and egocentric. Due to their 'lovingkindness' meditations, they convince themselves in their hearts that they are feeling compassion for another person, while going on to treat them like crap. Then they just meditate more until they feel more compassionate, stroking their own ego in the process.

Many Western Buddhists I have met held superstitious dogmatic beliefs about Karma and reincarnation/rebirth, such as the notion that if you have any anger or ill-will in your heart at the moment of your death, you'll come back as an animal!

So I also moved on from Buddhism, and away from its superstition, morality/ethics and political activism. What really gave me the push there was reading The Satanic Bible back in early 2004, and envisioning man as another animal, where everything is ultimately carnal, yet the rational mind (or 'ego' in Freudian terms) can formulate what is in one's self-interest and use that as a yardstick.

Another book which explores the notion of man as just another animal is "Straw Dogs" by John N. Gray (not to be confused with another John Gray). This book critiques many secular humanist ideologies and moral philosophies which the author sees as bastard offshoots of Christianity and the Christian notion of free will and with it, sin, and also makes some interesting comparisons between Darwinism and parts of Taoist philosophy. He quotes A.C. Graham:

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Taoism coincides with the scientific worldview at just those points where the latter most disturbs westerners rooted in the Christian tradition - the littleness of man in a vast universe; the inhuman Tao which all things follow, without purpose and indifferent to human needs; the transience of life, the impossibility of knowing what comes after death; unending change in which the possibility of progress is not even conceived; the relativity of values; a fatalism very close to determinism; even a suggestion that the human organism operates like a machine.

Such reading helped to uproot much of my Christian upbringing, and to get a realistic view of human beings as animals, no morally superior to non-human animals. There are no gods, there is no one upstairs. There are no moral categorical imperatives that we simply must obey just because we must. Free will looks likely to be a kind of illusion. There is no sin, no salvation, no damnation. Death is more than likely the permanent end of consciousness, but we can't imagine what that is like.

Still, according to the rules of Christianity, many paths I have chosen in live have been called evil or sinful.

Gray has this to say on the subject, under the heading of "Morality as an Aphrodisiac":
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A sense of guilt may add spice to otherwise unremarkable vices. There are undoubtedly those who have converted to Christianity because they seek an excitement that mere pleasure can no longer supply. Think of Graeme Greene, who used the sense of sin he acquired through converting to Catholicism as an aphrodisiac. Morality has hardly made us better people, but it has certainly enriched our vices.

Post-Christians deny themselves the pleasures of guilt. They blush at using a queasy conscience to flavor their stale pleasures. As a result, they are notably lacking in joie de vivre. Among those who have once been Christians, pleasure can be intense only if it is mixed with the sensation of acting immorally.

And here is what Anton LaVey had to say on the subject:
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We feel guilt is a necessary thing. Not necessary that it's practiced at all times, but we're stuck with it, we have it in our collective unconscious, we have a certain amount of feeling of apprehension for things we've done because we're taught from childhood not to do certain things. Any attempt to 'scrape the psyche clean' is only going to make us much more fraught with frustrations and tensions.

So what we've done is just reversed the procedure - instead of trying to free ourselves, we've taken all these hang-ups and we've turned them into useful situations. If you're gonna be a sinner, be the best sinner on the block. If you're going to do something that's naughty - do it - and realize that you're doing something naughty and enjoy it!

Which brings me to the symbol or archetype of Satan. Personally I like the symbol, it's aesthetic potential and empowering nature. I don't personally though consider titles such as Satanist as any more than ultimately empty categories unworthy of bitch-fighting over, although I can see how some may have the need to defend such titles in a territoral manner. For me though, I enjoy the private symbolic and ironic use of concepts such as evil, sin and Satan.

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#40544 - 07/20/10 11:38 AM Re: Why Satan? [Re: Lucifer Rising]
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I grew up in a Christian family but had a sense from an early age that I was different. I just didn’t buy Christianity. There were many holes in it that seemed glaring to me, and I couldn’t manage to gloss over them the way my family did. My religious break from my family made me the black sheep, and I took that label and ran with it. I began listening to music my parents disapproved of, and the more they fought me on it the more I wanted it. Eventually I came across the music of Marilyn Manson, and that pretty much sealed the deal for me.

I loved Manson, and I still do. I was in a bookstore one day, and I happened across his autobiography The Long Hard Road out of Hell. I could relate to his story in many ways – his alienation, his cynical view of mankind and his desire to leave a scar on the world. In the book, Manson described his encounter with Anton LaVey and his thoughts on Satanism. What Manson said about Satanism made sense to me, so I began looking into it.

What started out as a fascination with rebellion and gothic imagery has evolved into a way of life focused on realism, growth and self-centeredness. I don’t always get it right, but I make a conscious effort to learn from my mistakes and take responsibility for them. I look forward to a future in which I, and not some invisible man in the sky, am the one charting my course.
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#40547 - 07/20/10 03:06 PM Re: Why Satan? [Re: Meq]
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The idea of using guilt and naughtiness to enhance an experience is certainly telling. It reminds me of women who flock to foods like chocolate and ice cream while all the while going on about how BAD it is and how they SHOULDN'T be eating it. They lick their fingers and moan about how TERRIBLE they've been and how they're going to get fat and break out and blah, blah, blah. It certainly makes desert considerably more exciting. \:\/

It relates to relationships as well. Having sex with someone you've been together with since forever can be boring and routine, but a new flame has a sense of daring and dirtiness that's thrilling. In order to bring back passion, partners try and introduce elements of excitement with roleplay or kink.

This reminds me of Shawn's post on the MCoS about how psychologically empowering perceiving oneself as "evil" can be. It gives people greater willpower, endurance, and strength to think of being "bad."

When you think in those terms, identifying with the archetype of "Satan" just makes sense.
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#40576 - 07/20/10 09:53 PM Re: Why Satan? [Re: XiaoGui17]
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Excuse a life story here.

It seems my upbringing and eventual identification as Satanism is different than most. I was not raised christian or spiritual in any way. My Atheist mother saw to that. My parents grew up poor white in a poor mexican neighbourhood. This is combined with most their immediately family being violent drug addicts and/or batshit nuts. There's a LOT of insanity in both sides of my family. In the past four generations I know of three diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia, at least one incestuous molestation, and one crazed murder. Also may less dramatic but very unhealthy relationships between family members.

My parents luckily had the good sense to try and get as far from their families as possible. Their experiences caused them to be vary untrusting and private people. Where we moved to was a broken down little trailer park with a population of less than fifty full of meth addicts, two of which were known child molesters. So of course they didn't let me run around free and play with the other kids.

Because of these circumstances I never really felt too connected with the people around me. One of my siblings developed a strong social-phobia. It didn't cause me to be a complete loner but it took me years of my teenage and adult life to figure out how to just be around and socialize with people. As a result I never felt too much of a connection with other people. Never adopted their beliefs or cared much of their social standards. I especially never gained a respect or fear for authority figures.

I became very interested in those that rejected regular social standards and lived by their own rules. Especially those that seemed to take pride in opposition to society. This is what opened my interest in Anton LaVey and Satanism. When I picked up the Satanic Bible I figured it was either going to be dogmatic spiritual garbage for a good laugh or a work meant to satire and mock human beliefs which I would enjoy. But what I actual found (sandwiched in between a plagiarism of Might is Right and the waaaay too long passages of enochian babel) was my own thoughts and ideas presented in a beautiful new aesthetic.

Not to say I was seeking to 'belong' to any kind of group because that's not what it was about. At the time I felt a big hopeless about trying to get by in a society of people who's brains seemed to just function different without being miserable. This book taught me that not only were they plenty of others that felt the same but not only can 'different' people get by happily but that we can lead much more fulfilling lives.

Around '04 I made the decision to drop out of high school and instead go for a GED on my own time. This is one of the best decisions I ever made with my life. Not only for the freedom of escape the social hellhole and joke of an education system it was but also at the time I had terrible insomnia that was soon relieved. I knew that dropping out of public school was the first step toward my real education. I began reading Nietzsche. Beyond Good and Evil particularly clicked with me. It gave me a lot to think on as I was already beginning to criticize the idea of morality and what it meant. The love for opposition and intellectualism grew bigger.

At this time I was still weary about accepting the title of Satanist. I felt as if it meant I didn't have my own athletics an philosophies beyond what was presented. I don't know why it took me so long to realize how stupid that idea was. Once I came to senses and realized embracing a label didn't mean generalizing or limiting myself I took on the title. Essentially I don't feel calling myself a Satanist is a big deal because it doesn't change who or what I am. If I didn't embrace the aesthetic I'd still be everything I am now.

And then I threw all that away and realized the television was the source of all love and life so I pray to it now.... just kidding.

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#40604 - 07/21/10 03:59 AM Re: Why Satan? [Re: TV is God]
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 Originally Posted By: TV is God
... have my own athletics..

Just looked over this again and realised how much I look like an idiot and it's too late to edit.
AESTHETICS

You'd never see my scrawny ass take part in athletics in a million years.


Edited by TV is God (07/21/10 04:03 AM)

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#41793 - 08/11/10 02:15 PM Re: Why Satan? [Re: TV is God]
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As a young girl I went to church with my grandmother. As I sat there on the front roll, it hit me if God exists then why is my life such a living hell?Soon after I was where I didn't go to church at all. I found comfort in my room listening to music and reading.Here recently did I want to try to find what to call myself. I would jokingly say the world is our on hell and we are living in it. I've come to find out that my life is what I've made it. If you want to be happy then be happy. I don't need God and church to make me rich,happy,and full filled.I just started looking up things on the Internet mostly to see if there was others like me.Seems everyone I know in my life was believers in Christ.I really felt alone.I came across a few readings by Anton LaVey. He seemed to catch my eye.I learned he had written a Satanic Bible. Of course around here the book isn't available.I bought it read it cover to cover.I decided then and there I was hooked.It was like I wanted more and more to read.I never knew the world was full of others who was exactly like me.Although they had different views.Satanism to me is my way of life now.I feel like Satan is someone to be admired. There isnt one person in my life that I know of that hasnt sinned and went to church to ask forgiveness and for some reason its ok for them to repeat themselves. It's pathetic. I feel like I have somewhere to belong now...sorta like in the eyes of Satan Im perfect. He doesnt care whether or not I cuss,drink,or lie etc. I think he wants me to live the way I see fit.
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#41968 - 08/16/10 05:32 AM Re: Why Satan? [Re: SomethingDark]
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Satan Lucifer in my philosophy is simply that: The adversary of God. Not the "satan" of Job that causes trouble for mankind at Jehovah's request. Two very different characters. Satan Lucifer as - or through - the Serpent revealed to man allegorically how to attain knowledge "as God" and that is my stance and alliance on it.
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#42095 - 08/20/10 12:41 AM Re: Why Satan? [Re: Caliga]
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Well, Lucifer Rising, my story begins at the opposite end of the religious spectrum. I was raised by my mother as a pagan/neo-pagan/wiccan. At a young age, I was practicing candle magic and performing spells. I celebrated all of the solstices with rituals but participated in christian or popular holidays (christmas, easter, halloween etc...) because i found them entertaining and fun, an excuse to have a good time.

Paganism in theory didn't seem to suit me when it came to the subject of evil. I have frequently learned of pagans' idea of evil being associated with greed and materialism. For me, these things are irrelevant to my opinion of good and evil. I refuse to label greed, laziness, and ego the soul causes of evil and I am not going to hurt myself by putting that label on me based on my humanity. Satanism fits me.

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#42255 - 08/22/10 10:06 PM Re: Why Satan? [Re: Miss May]
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For those interested in an Eastern metaphysical ontology combined with Satanism read on:

Emptiness, Nothingness, Void is what I see which is the stuff beyond perception and grasping; hence, is formless and on the other side of being and non-being. The Emptiness is not attached to the physical world, thus, it is unalloyed negation. Emptiness is negation because when I slight it by describing it through words, Emptiness fails. All our relative knowledge is concerned with Appearences, Body, and Use while occupying the forefront of our Minds. Be aware what underlies all the phenomena...Emptiness. Emptiness is everywhere and anywhere; constantly falls within my reach; it is always with me and in me; conditions all my knowledge, deeds, and is life itself. When I attempt to pick it up and hold it forth as something before my eyes, it eludes me and vanishes like vapor.

Substitute Satan with Emptiness, and you get a glimpse into my perception of Satan.

This provided the impetus for me to have a penetrating comprehension as regards the nature of Mind. It has freed my Mind from the fetters of living, and an emancipation or leap is what resulted. It was brought about to a great extent by my subjective experience with the world at large. It freed me as much as possible from dualities (e.g. birth and death), and put me on a level in which I do not see a difference between an acorn and an oak tree. Ascribing to Nihilist views: External objects do not exist. Earnestly, a state of self-realization transcends onto me when I look within with intuitive understanding seeing into my inmost self.

However insistently the blind-from-birth deny the existence of the sun (Satanists), they cannot annhilate it.
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#42262 - 08/22/10 11:01 PM Re: Why Satan? [Re: Lucifer Rising]
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I am not sure I can answer this question categorically.

When I was a kid I liked to play with toy soldiers and toy armies with tanks, cannons and other equipment. I liked to set them up, move them around the field, determine their order, their purpose and their identity.

I also liked to build spaces or environments where I could rule or organise what happened. The spaces I built were bizarre in some way or unorthodox. Those spaces were places of imagination and were shut off away from the world. Any person who was present in these spaces with me had a specific purpose there which I had defined for them.

I also was interested in empires and those people who built empires. I was interested in the look of cities, dark grinding machines and labs and enormous vehicles moving through wastelands etc. I liked the aesthetic of the 19th century factory somewhat, with its machinery and noise and grime. I also liked vast submarines that seemed to never end, travelling through tunnels into the centre of the earth etc.

God was only interesting in so far as he was supposed to be all-powerful and hence dark and frightening. Jesus was a soft and fluffy sort of thing which didn’t interest me that much.

I think all of this stuff I was interested in and did as a kid was an attempt to play act Magic; to gain control and order others towards my own ends, to build my own empire.

I wasn’t really interested in determining right and wrong via some group activity. That tended to frustrate me. I liked to be on my own and do what I wanted to do, that was right for me.

I am very attracted to the aesthetics of Metropolis and think it is one of the greatest of all the Satanic films.

When I was casting around for a word to describe these activities of my youth and their later adult equivalents I came across the word Satanism and felt that this name was appropriate for me so I adopted it.

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#42274 - 08/23/10 01:26 AM Re: Why Satan? [Re: ]
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When I was a young child I loved bible stories and the thought of Jesus and God. I spent my days imagining what Heaven would be like and what God thinks of me. Once I got to my middle school years I became the nerd that never got the girls and was picked on to do other peoples homework. I began praying to God for help with my troubles. For years I never heard an answer. Years later in 06' I recognized myself as an Atheist. That same year I found out a group of 6 guys all lived in my neighborhood that were my age. We all became friends and they would always force me to listen to Death Metal because I hated it. Eventually I started to love it; in 07' I became interested in Black Metal and wondered why the hell do all these guys worship the devil? I was fascinated by the lyrics of "Dimmu Borgir" and then began to research Satanism. Immediately I saw a reflection of myself in those articles I found online. Not long after I bought the Satanic Bible and became very attached to the philosophy within it. That's why and how I came to Satan.
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#42330 - 08/24/10 12:07 AM Re: Why Satan? [Re: Severed Soul]
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Although I received my primary education at a Catholic school, I had no use for God, Jesus, or Virgin Mary.

I first became interested in Satan during the Satanic Panic. Yes, that special time when “breeders” infested the afternoon talk show circuit and Bob Larson ruled the airwaves. I know those days were particularly unpleasant for some of you, but it provided much mystery and imagery for a portion of the youth of the day. There was an aura of restrained fear throughout my community as the urban myth of Satanists quietly taking over America provided a much needed scapegoat for incompetent parents,sex deprived teachers, and Reagan conservatives.
I still remember watching Geraldo’s Satanism Special with one hand on the remote ready to flip the channel if anything particularly terrifying occurred, while simultaneously being attracted to the imagery and the strange guests present. At that time, I saw Satan as an alluring mystery that begged further exploration.

I eventually picked up a copy of the Satanic Bible and found that it just contained common sense. I thought Satanic ritual was downright dumb but decided to give it a try anyway. I used Halloween props for my first rituals and got some interesting results. I began to use Satan as a symbol to represent myself. I just saw Satan as me.

In the years that followed, my perception of Satan changed to Satan as a metaphor for the highest and best in me. This was useful for a time as I faced a series of personal trials.
Then Satan became a symbol for the forces of the subconscious mind and it was useful as a tool to dip into the dark pool of self.

More recently, I started to refer to Satan as a metaphor for the unified self, composed of the perceiver and perceived.
When I was a budding Satanist, it was me against the world. Now, the world is me as well as my playground.

Satan is the symbol I identify with that I feel best captures the concept of the creative universe that is the psyche of the individual Satanist.
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