I'm a former Christian who, up until now, would consider myself a "hopeful agnostic" in that I don't like the thought that this is all there is in life. However, since coming to this site I've read The Satanic Bible and said to myself, "wow, I agree with almost everything in this book!" Because of my religious upbringing I can't yet accept calling myself a Satanist even though I find myself agreeing with self described Satanists on a more and more frequent basis. Does this make me a Satanist who is just lying to himself? I don't like the idea of lying to myself. That's why I left Christianity in the first place!
You know, it's funny...I feel more like a Satanist than ever before - but I find it more difficult to call myself a Satanist, when before it was more like an affirmation "I am a Satanist" became a mantra of responsibility not to take part in the flaws affecting other sectors of the populace still steeped in superstition and confusion.
When you take on a title sometimes it is a good way to cultivate those aspects you havn't achieved yet - there's no rule in place saying when you can call yourself a Satanist. The beauty of Satanism
is there really are no hard rules to follow.
So yeah, just something to think about...sometimes you gotta start small...