Oh mate... a little advice, lurk for a time, read what this is about, if you haven't read the books in the media room do it now.
Ask yourself these questions, why do you want a to join a group? Why would a group will want to have you in their ranks? Why do you believe such nonsense as ascension or life after death?
In this forum you either have evidence to support everything you say or get ready to be eaten.
HeimiricIX - Made you look